Monthly Update

Hi semua, apa khabar? Sihat? Im fine. I hope you guys are feeling the same way too. 28/9 which is yesterday was the start of my final exams. I know you guys dont give a fuck about it but its my update so let me be me. Assignment berlambak nak mampus tapi aku rileks je. Sorang tolong sound aku. Hahaha.
Aku selalu kena palau sekarang kalau nak tahu. Kawan2 ada pun macam takde. Mungkin ini fasa. Tapi tulah, biar la. Nak buat mcm mana. Takkan nak terhegeh kejar perhatian. Tahun ni dah 19 kot. Aku selesa je jadi lone ranger, tapi kadang2 some attention might help. It really does. Not that im saying i dont get enough but humans never really satjsfy with what they got and im human too. Dah la, rant panjang2 bukan ada yang baca. Salam aman dari Namia, peace love and spread the good vibe

Rant 2.

Do you know whats 0-0? Its what im feeling. Emptiness. Funny how i turn to writing when im feeling down. Nah, not really down. Just plain emptiness. You guys ever felt this way? Haha i need tips to get over this.

Studies havent been okay. I play too much, laze around. Finally the consequences has caught up to me. But thats okay, i'll try to work it out.

I think the reason im writing this post is to let my feelings go. But i dont know what to write. Shit. The thought of you still bothers me. God damn. Whos that guy? Hahah i deserved this. Please dont do stupid things alright. I used someone else to cover my feeling. Faking it to make me feel okay but deep down i know im not okay.

I guess thats it. I miss writing, but i miss you more.

291016, 1732

Needed a place to rant.

Monday, 0020. Feeling unmotivated, down, kinda under appreciated too. Maybe this is just a phase. 

All started earlier this month. The feeling to talk to her started. Rapidly increasing. Day by day.. She was still really up in my mind. Till now she is though. She forgots most of our memories but she still keeps it. Touched my heart when she typed in our cutest word lol. Things have never been better, but inside. I noticed changes. Love will never be the same. Lightning wont strike the same place twice. But im positive im still head to heels all over her. If im in her position itll be the last thing to be in a relationship after what she been thru. Her heart isnt for anyone now. Maybe thats what keepin me down. Fuck. Any explaination for this. If youre reading this, i love you and forever will cayang

Hai!

Ok guys ni Namia. Kat sini saya nak wat diary. Tapi akan ada selitan kraftangan kreativiti sikit la nanti. Kot. Haha entahlanak. Gua rasa nak buat blog tapi bukan puisi pelancau sume. Nak sembang je. Agak jalan?


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